what really is the point of writing in one of these things?

i understand the feelings and pouring out everything you feel, sort of a self therapy type deal. but the more people you have added, its more like you are trying to build an army in a sense. i mean, think about it. you add more people so that when you say something or are making a point, you almost expect to receive comments to build up your emotion or defend yourself.

guh. why not use this just to keep an online connection of emotion, support, or simply just to see how a long time friend is doing? instead of using it as a weapon? how does that make sense?

but shit. as i read over what i wrote. am i not doing the same? idk. i guess it depends. i think i just ran a circle. well fuck you LJ. i felt like writing and ranting. peace the fuck out you cocksucker. im out.

WoW anyone?

Me loves it...

I think I'm going to start typing in here again... if WoW permits me to.

er... to be gay... or not to be gay... tis nobler to fuck, then to suck.

if anyone cares. i found a portal to livejournal for my cell phone. oh. and gmail. now i have to find one for myspace...

CLSnodgrass86 (3:52:00 AM): then do it with a girlfriend that wont care....

Shopping with Chrissy for maternity clothes + Josh = exhausting...

Lol.

I know that I am a huge fucking loser and I will be the only one who cares. But this list of PSP games that I found makes me giggle. I can't wait untill these games come out...good times.

- 50 Cent: Bulletproof (VU Games)
- Advent Shadow (Majesco)
- AI Series Mahjong (Marvelous Interactive)
- AI Series Igo (Marvelous Interactive)
- AI Series Shougo (Marvelous Interactive)
- Angel Collection (MTO)
- Ape Escape: Academia (SCEI)
- Ape Escape: On the Loose (SCEI)
- Archer MacLean`s Mercury (Ignition Entertainment)
- Armored Core: Formula Front (Agetec)
- ATV Offroad Fury: Blazin` Trails (SCEI)
- Axel Impact International (SCEI)
- Batman Begins (Electronic Arts)
- Battlefield II: Modern Combat (Electronic Arts)
- Beatbox Studio (Coong Entertainment)
- Black & White Creatures (Majesco)
- Bleach: Heat the Soul (SCEI)
- Bleach 2 (SCEI)
- Bloodrayne 2 (Majesco)
- Bokujou Monogatari series (Marvelous Interactive)
- Bomberman: Panic Bomber (Hudson)
- Bounty Hounds (Namco)
- Burnout Legends (Electronic Arts)
- Card Shark 3 (Phoenix Games)
- Cloud of Verruca (Success)
- Coded Arms (Konami)
- Colin McRae Rally 2005 (Codemasters)
- Combat Over Europe (GMX Media)
- Crash Tag Team Racing (VU Games)
- Crazy Racing: Kart Rider (Nexon)
- Crisis Core: Final Fantasy VII (Square Enix)
- DarkStalkers Chronicle: The Chaos Tower (Capcom)
- Daxter (SCEI)
- Dead to Rights: Reckoning (Namco)
- Death Jr (Konami)
- Def Jam Vendetta (Electronic Arts)
- Derby Time (SCEI)
- Detective Shinto Shrine (Work Jams)
- Devil May Cry series (Capcom)
- Disney/Pixar`s The Incredibles: Rise of the Underminer (THQ)
- Dokodemo Issyo (SCEI)
- Dokodemo Kaishou Pachislot Sengen (Tecmo)
- Dragon Ball Z (Bandai)
- DRIV3R (Atari)
- Dynasty Warriors (Koei)
- Eiyuu Densetsu Gagharv Trilogy: Akai Shizuku (Bandai)
- Eiyuu Densetsu Gagharv Trilogy: Shiroki Majo (Bandai)
- Evil Village (Now Production)
- EX Jinsei Game (Atlus)
- F1 Grand Prix (SCEI)
- FIFA Soccer 2005 (Electronic Arts)
- Fired Up (SCEI)
- Football Manager 2006 (Sega)
- FRANTIX (Sony Online Entertainment)
- Free Runing (Eidos)
- Frogger: Helmet Chaos (Konami)
- Ghost in the Shell: Stand Alone Complex (Bandai)
- GloRace: Phantastic Carnival (SCEI)
- Grand Theft Auto: Liberty City Stories (Rockstar Games)
- Gran Turismo mobile (SCEI)
- Gretzky NHL 06 (SCEI)
- Gretzky NHL 2005 (SCEI)
- GripShift (Sony Online Entertainment)
- Guilty Gear Judgment (Majesco)
- Gun (Activision)
- Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire (Electronic Arts)
- Harukanaru Toki no Naka De: Iroe Tebako (Koei)
- Higanjima (Now Production)
- Hoshigari Empusa (Takyuo)
- Hot Shots Golf: Open Tee (SCEI)
- Infected (Majesco)
- Intelligent License (Now Production)
- James Bond 007: From Russia with Love (Electronic Arts)
- Jan- Mate (Success)
- Jeff Corwin Experience (Conspiracy Entertainment)
- Jikkyo Powerful Pro Yakyuu series (Konami)
- Jissen Pachislot Hisshopou! Fist of the North Star Portable (Sega)
- Karakuri (Tecmo)
- Karaoke (SCEI)
- Kawa no Nushi Tsuri series (Marvelous Interactive)
- Kidou Keisatsu Patlabor (Bandai)
- Kidou Senshi Gundam (Bandai)
- King`s Field series (From Software)
- Kino no Tabi: The Beautiful World (MediaWorks)
- KOF Milennium Impact (SNK Playmore)
- Kollon (CyberFront)
- Kotoba no Puzzle: Mojipittan Daijiten (Namco)
- Lara Croft: Tomb Raider Legend (Eidos)
- Lemmings (SCEI)
- Lumines (UbiSoft)
- Madden NFL 06 (Electronic Arts)
- Mahjong Kakutou (Konami)
- Mahjong Taikai (Koei)
- Marvel Nemesis: Rise of the Imperfects (Electronic Arts)
- MediEvil Resurrection (SCEI)
- Metal Gear AC!D (Konami)
- Metal Gear AC!D 2 (Konami)
- Midnight Club 3: DUB Edition (Rockstar Games)
- Midway Arcade Treasures (Midway)
- MLB 2005 (SCEI)
- Mobile Train Simulator + Densha de Go! Tokyo Kyuukou Hen (Ongakukan)
- Monster Hunter (Capcom)
- Mortal Kombat: Deception (Midway)
- Mushi (Global A)
- MX Unleashed (THQ)
- MVP Baseball 2005 (Electronic Arts)
- Namco Museum (Namco)
- Namco Museum Battle Collection (Namco)
- Naruto (Bandai)
- NBA 06 (SCEI)
- NBA 2005 (SCEI)
- NBA Ballers (Midway)
- NBA Live 06 (Electronic Arts)
- NBA Street Showdown (Electronic Arts)
- Need for Speed Most Wanted (Electronic Arts)
- Need for Speed Underground Rivals (Electronic Arts)
- Neo Pets: Petpet Adventures: The Wand of Wishing (SCEI)
- NFL Street 2 Unleashed (Electronic Arts)
- One Piece (Bandai)
- Pac- Man World 3 (Namco)
- Paintball Tournamnet: Hastings 2006 (Activision)
- Payout Poker and Casino (Namco)
- Persona (Atlus)
- Peter Jackson`s King Kong (UbiSoft)
- Pilot Nina Rou series (Marvelous Interactive)
- Pinball (Hudson)
- Pirates of the Caribbean: Dead Man`s Chest (Disney Interactive)
- Plus Plum 2 Again (Takyuo)
- PoPoLo Crois (Agetec)
- Prince of Persia: Warrior Within (UbiSoft)
- Princess Crown (Atlus)
- Professional Wrestling (Yukes)
- Project Econia (Lionlogics)
- Pursuit Force (SCEI)
- Puyo Puyo Fever (Sega)
- Puzzle Bobble Pocket (Taito)
- Red Line (SCEI)
- Rengoku: Tower of Purgatory (Konami)
- Ridge Racer (Namco)
- RNR: We Run Through The Beats (Seed9)
- RS Revolution (Spike)
- San Goku Shi V (Koei)
- School Rumble! Anesan Jiken Desu (Bandai)
- Sengoku Cannon: Sengoku Ace Episode III (XNauts)
- Shingata (Sunrise)
- Shinobido Imashime (Spike)
- Shin Tenmakai: Generation of Chaos IV Another Side (NIS America)
- Shutoko Battle: Zone of Control (Genki)
- Slotter Up Core 5 Lupin Daisuki! Shuyaku ha Zenigata (Dorart)
- Smartbomb (Eidos)
- SOCOM: U.S. Navy SEALs Fireteam Bravo (SCEI)
- Sonic (Sega)
- Soukyuu no Fafner: Dead Aggressor (Bandai)
- Space Invaders Pocket (Taito)
- Sparrow Merit (Success)
- Spider- Man 2 (Activision)
- SpongeBob SquarePants: The Yellow Avenger (THQ)
- SSX: On Tour (Electronic Arts)
- Stacked with Daniel Negreanu (Myelin Media)
- Star Soldier (Hudson)
- Star Wars: Battlefront II (LucasArts)
- Star Wars Episode III: Revenge of the Sith (UbiSoft)
- StageShift (Playlogic International)
- Street Fighter Alpha 3 (Capcom)
- Super Robot Taisen Portable (Banpresto)
- Super Star Studio (Coong)
- Syphon Filter: Logan`s Shadow (SCEI)
- Taiko no Tatsujin (Namco)
- Tales of Eternia (Namco)
- Tantei Jinguuji Saburo (Work Jams)
- Technic Cute (Arika)
- Tecmo My Generation (Tecmo)
- Tenchi no Mon (SCEI)
- Tenchu Shinobi Taizen (From Software)
- Tengai Makyou: Daishi no Mokushiroku: The Apocalypse (Hudson)
- Test Drive Unlimited (Atari)
- The Apprentice (VU Games)
- The Chronicles of Narnia: The Lion, The Witch and The Wardrobe (Disney Interactive)
- The Con (SCEI)
- The Fantastic Four (Activision)
- The Godfather (Electronic Arts)
- The Sims 2 (Electronic Arts)
- Tiger Woods PGA Tour 2005 (Electronic Arts)
- TGM- K (Arika)
- TOCA Race Driver 2: The Ultimate Racing Simulator (Codemasters)
- Tom Clancy`s Splinter Cell 4 (UbiSoft)
- Tony Hawk`s American Wasteland (Activision)
- Tony Hawk`s Underground 2 Remix (Activision)
- Toudai Shougi Portable (Manichi)
- Touge Max (Atlus)
- True Crime 2 (Activision)
- Twelve: Sengoku Fuushinden (Konami)
- Twisted Metal: Head On (SCEI)
- Untold Legends: Brotherhood of the Blade (Sony Online Entertainment)
- Untold Legends II (Sony Online Entertainment)
- Vegas Casino 2 (Phoenix Games)
- Viewtiful Joe VFX Battle (Capcom)
- Virtua Tennis: World Tour (Sega)
- Visual Novel series (Aqua Plus)
- Vulcanus (Zepetto)
- WipEout Pure (SCEI)
- World Championship Snooker 2005 (Sega)
- World Poker Tour 2K6 (2K Games)
- World Soccer Winning Eleven series (Konami)
- World Tour Soccer 2005 (SCEI)
- World Rally Championship (SCEI)
- X- Men Legends II: Rise of Apocalypse (Activision)
- Xyanide (Playlogic International)
- Yamasi Digi Portable (Yamasa)
- Yarudora Portable Series: Double Cast (SCEI)
- Yarudora Portable Series: Kisetsu o Dakishimete (SCEI)
- Yarudora Portable Series: Sampaguita (SCEI)
- Yarudora Portable Series: Yukiwari no Hana (SCEI)
- Ys: The Ark of Napishtim (Konami)
- Zooo (Ignition Entertainment)

I am bored. Send me a message on aim... somebody...

countysupercop

thats me.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME! 18!

My birthday is in 4 days. The big 18.

This is Christine and I have to go away so Josh can make an entry on MY computer so I can read it tomorrow if I get sad.. :P


I had the best time of my life tonight. Don't worry k? I love you. Remember to be a happy duck bill platypus.

I want to say so much... but just remember tonight if anything starts to bother you...

I am so friggin bored. I am sitting at home on a friday night. guh. I haven't done this in a while. Everyone that I tried to hang out with was just going home to play video games. lol. Christine told me to call her at 1130 but I tried calling her a couple of minutes ago and no answer. Bleigh. I wish i could be doing something... Oh well. bored bored bored bored bored. Yay, some people are online!

I wish that I had something deep to write about, but I don't. lol.

I feel like christine doesn't feel comfortable around me anymore. I hope that she is comfortable with me.

Christine and I got into it really bad last night. It was the worst we have done. I think that we were both ready to end then. But I am really glad that we didn't. She is popping my pimples as I am updating. lol. Well today had been an okay day. I really overreacted to her post today. I just assumed some things that I shouldn't have done so. Well then I "yelled" at her, and she got pissed, which I don't blame her. I could have just asked instead of just yelling at her. But then I realized that she could've just left me right there and just let this shit just go away. But she didn't. We love each other so much, and she still kept me after last night and today. She is so awesome. Then instead of just being bitchy and a dick like I normally do, I realized that I had made a huge mistake and just dropped it. Then ever since then, today has been amazing. We have been so happy with each other, like nothing is wrong. It is great. She is getting grumpy though. She is hungry. Don't mess with this girls stomach. lol. Love you hunny.

I had an awesome V-Day. The best I have ever had. Christine loves her promise ring and I got her candy and a card, of which I put great thought into. Anyway. I am kinda weirded out right now. I want to hang out with some of my friends but I am not sure who is my friend. Sean Costello. But he is in Illinois. Jake but I don't know if he would even hang out with me. We haven't really talked in forever. Dustin but he is a selfish prick who used to be a good friend, I don't want to start hanging out with him again. Michael Ruprecht, but him and I are completely different people now and I don't enjoy hanging out with him the same way I used to. I feel lonely almost, but I hang out with Christine all the time. It is weird, cuz she is like my best friend, but yet I want to hang out with other people, but yet I think about her all the time, and I sometimes want to be with her all the time (I have gotten better about the clingy thing). Then there is Nathan who I could hang out with, but I think that he thinks that I ditch him, or he is hanging out with Catherine. There is this guy at work, his name is Eric, but I don't think that I want to get caught up in his crowd, drinking and smoking dope all weekend, every weekend. There are a couple girls that I could hang out with but I don't want to do that either. I think that maybe I could try to hang out with Christine's friend jesse, cuz he is cool, but I doubt that him and I would have a good time hanging out. I don't know I am confused about the way I feel. Bleh...

I am too clingy. It is a well known fact. I wish there is something, anything that I can do to fix it. Christine nor I can think of anything. Even though we are going back out, I feel that it bugs her that I am clingy. Does anybody know anything? Well we are so much better with each other. She went on some sorta date and when she was there it was really akward and she realized how much she wanted to be with me. Which is awesome, because I love her so much. But a couple nights before I was having a shitty day, and I went off on here. Which then I realized that she wasn't the reason we kept arguing and that I was the more of a reason. I usually started it. I also realized that we weren't going out and that she could've just not talked to me anymore. So I have been treating her so much better, and not arguing with her. Because she doesn't have to stay with me. She could leave me anytime she wanted. And during our "seperation" I think that I was taking advantage of the fact that she wanted to be back together. But the whole time I thought that she was the one taking the advantage of me. I just had a reality check, and I am so happy that I did because Christine isn't going to just stay because she loves me, I have to be really good to her, and make her have a reason to stay. Instead of just expecting her to. Things will be better now, I promise Christine. I respect her, and I treat her so much better. I have been flirty with her and awesome to her and I like it. I don't know why I never flirted with her while we were going out. She is so fun to be with! I don't know why I was grouchy when I was with her before. This last weekend I have changed so much, I hope that she likes it too! The only thing that I want to change about myself is the clingy thing. I hope that I can so Christine has no reason to break up with me! I love you so much baby! I don't want to be without you.

updatie... christine i am on

You keep talking to him, even though he cleary wants to be with you. He is so negative about us when you talk to him. He wants to be with you and he is trying to break us up. I am trying to be understanding that you need your friends. But when is the line drawn for my feelings? I love you and I would do anything for you, but yet when it hurts me that you talk to him, you still do. I love you, I hope we stay together for a long time...